The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.
Proverbs 3, 5-6

Censorship board

I've basically lost my passion to blog. I know you may say that I just started my blog not too long ago. In fact I have less than 50 entries as of today. And what am I talking about losing my passion here? Well, people has been reading my blog. And I've got some verbal feedback on what I blogged about. And if you noticed, I've done some changes over time on some of my previous entries. Reason why I have done so is because, these verbal feedbacks that I get tells me that those things that I mentioned are 'disturbing' to some. Worst still I may be sued for what I have written. So, amendments could not be avoided so that I may not out of no where get a legal letter from someone I may have 'disturbed' unknowingly. Here, I am sincerely apologising to all that I may have caused anger to after reading my blog. You may very well stop reading this blog from now onwards if you wish.

Another week ahead

There goes Monday, and looking ahead, another week, like it or not, have to slog through Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. Coming to work feels so routine now. Just keep coming to work in the morning. Do whatever you are supposed to, log out at 6pm, blog, talk to some colleagues and catch up and maybe do some gossips. Go home, watch TV, shower, sleep and come back to work the next day. Every Monday, I so look forward to Friday to come.

Makes me think, is there more to life than this? No work, no money, how to live? Work, work, work, no play, so what is life? Sounds so contradicting. I have no answer to this. If I had, I would have been God! Coming to work is a dread nowadays. Maybe I've been doing the same thing for 3 years. I'm at my comfort zone now. Only thing that keeps me here is the pay. This company really pays well. But with the pay, you've got to work really hard for it. The money is on the table for you to grab. You just need to focus to get it.

In this world there are sacrifices to make. So, it all depends to which road you choose to take. Take my life for instance. I can very well tell you that it is so empty, as in totally blank. I come to work Mondays to Fridays. I go back to my hometown to spend time with Sunshine during the weekends. Five days in a week, there is nothing to look forward to at all. Sucks big time man. Saturday would be my sleeping day as Sunshine still works on Saturday. Then Sunday, we might have some event, such as go to Ipoh for a movie or shopping. Or else, continue sleeping.

Tell me, is that all to life? I know everyone has got to work. Unless you are born with a silver spoon in your mouth. Then I'd say that you are the luckiest person on earth. Then again, you still need to find something to do. Or else your life will be aimless, and spending your inheritance blindly.

Lunch --- yikes

It's quarter end, the whole sales team is expected to lunch in on Fridays. That means free lunch and OT claim. That also means, you can have lunch at the leisure of your office desk, no hot sun and no long walks to the car. Today's menu is from a reputable restaurant. It's delivered. We all like it as the food is not bad and well packed, very presentable considering it's delivered.

However, today is so unfortunate. It's Friday the 14th, not Friday the 13th. How come? Lunch is delivered direct to our desks. Everyone started eating their meal. And suddenly, there was a big hu ha at boss's cube. I walked over to see what was it all about. She discovered a cockroach in her meal box. Eew... She threw that box away into the bin. There was another spare box, she took it. She opened it, and she found some weird black thing that stuck to the egg yolk. Yikes, bad luck for her. Two contaminated boxes. Then a colleague seated beside me said she found hair and sand in her box. That is seriously bad man. I cringe at my box. It is left of my table. I considered not to eat it. The clock strike 3.30pm. I was hungry. I thought that I would peek into the box and dig it carefully in case I found something that was not supposed to be in the lunch box. To my horror, awful and disgusted, I found a strand of hair in my very own lunch box. Sick as it may be, I totally lost my appetite, though I was so hungry. The box ended up in my bin. The picture may be blur, but it is the best I can do right now. I did not expect to take this picture! Picture is courtesy of SHAE, who used her O2 to get this shot. I went downstairs to the bakery, got myself a garlic bun and a box of chocolate milk.

Selective understanding

Do you think you'd be able to get a branded laptop for S$ 1199? With configurations of Pentium M, 512MB RAM, 60GB HDD and DVD/CDRW? On top of that, the licensed software is for S$ 100? Tell me where can you get all this from at such a low price?

Yes, I am so frustrated now. There are customers who calls in to ask these kind of stupid thing. Do they even think before they call in? Do they even have any common sense to figure out that the price and the configuration does not match? Look, if you can't afford to buy, then just try to save up. If you look at the brochures or online, make sure you are looking at the right country website. Don't come and ask me RM 1199 when you are looking at the US website. How much stupid-er can you get?

Mario & Luigi SuperStar Saga

I am so addicted to this game now. This was the game I purchased when I got my GameBoy Advance. Actually, Sunshine bought it for me. It's supposed to be a Christmas gift, or was it Valentine's gift. I've been looking to get the GBA for a long time. But then, it is pretty costly. Hehehe... I always remind Sunshine to get me nice gifts, because getting gifts for each other is not something that we always share. Oh, I got him a Mont Blanc pen last Christmas. I bought him another Mont Blanc product for his birthday this year. But he didn't like it. Damns!

Back to the game, as I've mentioned, I got the game like almost coming to a year. When I got it, the cartridge was faulty. I could not save the game and I had to start all over again when I end the game. Imagine, spending an hour on the game, when you end the game and want to continue later, you have to play the whole one hour again. So, when will I ever finish the game? I'll need to play it continuously til the end, means to say, I don't need to eat or sleep for maybe a month. So we sent the cartridge back to the shop we got it from. I wanted that game. I didn't want to change it for another game. That shop only got 1 of that game. No choice, I had to send it back, let them repair or wait til the next one comes. I was without a game cartridge for some time.

So I bought Zelda, The Minish Cap. That was a great game as well. I enjoyed playing it. Gave up halfway as it was too difficult. Then searched the net and asked my cousin for cheats. I proudly finished the game. And now, I am back with my Mario. The difficulty gets higher every stage. It is so interesting. I want to go home to play now. But then, I've got a printer training to attend now. Printer sales is very bad in this region. So, they are trying all sorts of way so that we can sell it confidently. Woops.... everyone has gone for the training.

Dunia ini sudah sampai ke akhirat?

I don't know why, I just thought of this title in BM. It's almost 6pm, almost time to log out. I looked out of the window and it looks like it is going to rain. Gotta scram right after work so that I don't get wet. Not that I'm made of paper or powder that I will dissolve in rain. The car park is so far, that I have to walk I think it's around 500m. As dreadful as it might sound, thinking of it on a more positive side, that is my only form of daily exercise. My job provides me with a big comfy chair that I can sit for the whole day that I am at work. If I like it, I can continue sitting on it even after office hours.

Ok, back to the title for today. It's scary to think that the world is coming to an end. Yea, during the weekend, there was this earthquake that shook Pakistan at 7.6 magnitude, 20 - 30 thousand people are feared dead. On top of that, we have Hurricane Stan, that hit Guatemala, killing more people. If that was not bad enough, the week before, we had those insane bombers in Bali blowing up themselves and other tourists around the area. And the latest case in Malaysia, where some no brain bastards sending parcels to 13 foreign embassies scaring them with anthrax. What is coming to this world man? Natural disasters, that we can't control. But people killing people? Is there no meaning to live in this world anymore?

Oh yeah, I got a new hair do last week. Something that is totally different. I was with this conventional middle parting like for as long as I could remember. I wanted a change. I went to this place called New Technique, in front of Sunshine Farlim. That guy is great man. He totally changed my hair style with what is just left of my hair. I am so amazed. In fact all of my colleagues are amazed too. They all liked it. Errm, of course, people don't go telling you that you have a bad hair style right? I'm not sure if it's real, but for me, I am so pleased with my hair now.

Gotta scram, rain coming...

One week

It's been a week. I took leave and went off to Haadyai. 3 days only there, you think I go whole week meh? Pokai lo! Numerous things took place in between the whole week. Some not very nice things, like my neighbour atuk who passed away somewhere in mid September. He is a man of great glory. He stood by Tunku Abdul Rahman to pass him the 'watikah kemerdekaan' during the official Independance Day on 31 August 1957. Isn't he a great man? But what a pity, all those glory, no one remembered. No one even cared. All because he is just an ordinary man. If he was a datuk or a millionaire, everyone would remember him and he would receive many VIP invitation for important functions. But no, he died a lonely and forgotten man. May his soul rest in peace.

Not too long after that, one of my grand aunts (my father's mother's sister) passed away. Wow, you know, many people are dying these days. In fact this year alone, I've heard of so many deaths. It is so sad! People that I know and also family members of my friends. I get emotional on this.

On the brighter side, my long awaited break. Had been planning to go somewhere for some time already. I so so needed a break. Finally, some colleagues suggested to go Haadyai. The main agenda was to get massages, eat and some shopping. Sunshine and I drove in on Friday. While my colleagues, who did not get leave, came on Saturday. On Friday, we reached around 3.30pm. Went to walk around and do some light window shopping. When Sally, Danny, Tony, Terence and Mike arrived, they all so wanted to go for a massage. After they checked in at Lee Garden, we headed straight to Regency. All seven of us went into a room and had our massages. Wah, our bones felt so 'longgar' after that. Had lunch and everyone headed back to the hotel. Everyone fell asleep. Yeap, we all fell asleep and wasted our day sleeping! There you go, an interesting Haadyai trip.